Stress and Walking

Some people would say that I don't work in a high stress job. But those who know my boss would say different. Everyday there is a new set of problems. Either real or imagined. Some days it would seem that I can handle things better than others but in reality it is just that I handle it the same way just some days I am quieter than others. But stress is destructive to body, mind and soul. I know that high levels of stress can cause high blood pressure, diabetes, mental anguish, sleepless nights and a lot of tears. and with job stress on top of everyday life stress sometimes it becomes too much. I have yet to find the right thing that would allow me to get through it better than I have. But somethings that I have done are these: psychologist, drugs, walking, eating and so forth. Well I am trying to do away with two of those things... the eating and drugs... So that leaves walking and psychologist. Walking seems to work the best because a person can get a lot of thought out of the way when walking. also a lot of anger out when walking. When I walk I talk the whole time a lot of the time i probably look like a maniac talking to myself as I walk down the street but it helps me get it out in the open and actually hear what I am struggling with. I know for the first part of my walk I am usually cussing and getting the anger out, I have a lot of anger due to my boss. Then I start on the last part of my job reasoning out everything. I don't need an ipod of music to walk to because my cadence at first is usually fast and hard. then as I calm down i slow and cool off. benefits are of walking stress relief and sleep a deep sleep. oh and of course losing weight... So if you see me walking and talking if i am walking fast don't stop me or you might get in on my ire. And no i am not nuts... just trying not to become that way.

When you just have to have it.

Last night when I got home I was hungry for a pizza. I used to order a pizza from Mazzios and eat on it for a couple of days.... It was always so good lots of meat, cheese, sauce, dripping in oils but not any more... I just don't need it. but I am going to tell you an old Weight Watchers trick. And Jodi can tell you that they were good... but take a Tortilla (I use Mission Low Carb Whole Wheat) but any Tortilla would do well... that is your Crust. Place two tablespoons of your favorite Spagetti Sauce or even Pizza Sauce (I love Ragu) then top with what you want. and then bake. The crust gets crunchy, the cheese is melty and it just taste like a great homemade pizza. I have seen several other sites that use this same trick and have the recipes. One is the blog I follow: http://www.theworldaccordingtoeggface.com/ she really has some great ideas some i never thought of. But with one of these little flavorful jewels and I have my pizza fix. I try now never to withhold from myself. If I want something the best way is to find an alternative that works. Or just eat a small amount. I always found that if I felt deprived of something that was the worst thing because I would eventually run and eat the "whole" thing instead of being cautious. well this is my thoughts on my pizza fix

Well I had a moment today

I had to tell you all that I had a moment of heavy thought today. I actually am losing weight because my belly didn't touch the steering wheel. I know that you all don't understand it or maybe you do. But I actually would get into the Truck and behind the wheel and half the time my shirt was unbuttoned because the steering wheel would rub against my shirt and the buttons would open up. oh its a great feeling to be able to get behind the wheel and not touch it.

50 lbs lost. Yippee

Hey everyone... I have lost 50 lbs. I got on the scales this morning and i have done it. Yipee. can you hear me shouting. Dr. Khouw had taken me off all my meds but yesterday because my sugars still hadn't gotten below 120 he put me back on one pill. can you believe it... i can't it is like a miracle and I still can't believe it. Of course I am still going through withdrawal from all the drugs... you never understand how that feels until you go through it. but I am almost drug free and I am going to be thin. This was the best thing I could have ever done. and even with all the throwing up I would still do it again and again.