It's the simple things

Lapband was the best thing I have ever done. I can't believe I didn't do this years ago. I went three years ago but chose not to do that because I was afraid i wouldn't get to eat again because food was my life. I lived for food. It's amazing when you take away the food and so what do you live for. Well yesterday my three girls were so happy to see me come home. Three little dogs so glad that Me... Brenda Faye Bean is home for the day and they just want to be around me. All evening the girls played with me bringing the ball and waiting for me to throw it. Listened to every word I said to them. And was happy when I petted them or spoke to them. It's the same with Gavyn. I go to pick him up. he smiles at me when I show up and raises his arms to me. I can't believe that I missed these signs a lot. In the next couple of weeks I am going to be putting a garden in and I have a couple of flower beds to put in and also to put in an herb garden. And there will be more of Gavyn's smiles to see and more antics of the girls to watch. You miss a lot when you are so focused on one thing.

Seeing Red

As most of you will know I am a pretty level headed person. It takes a lot to make me really pissed off or to steam and not very many people can make me do that. Two of the worst offences that I have against people are waste and stupidity oh and one more the thinking that they are better than me or others. In today's world i often meet people like that and I usually just cross them off and walk away because I really don't need to have that stuff in my life. But yesterday it just sort of crept in. I have a nice job I make enough to pay my bills (mortgage, car payment, utilities and other things in my life. I do make extravagances but I first make sure I pay the important bills. I am not complaining about my job or the amount of money I make because in today's economics I am just glad I have a job. Yesterday an acquaintance contacted me and proceeded to tell me about their problems - lack of money - need of allowance raise - the in ability to get the things they need. This would always be sad and I would be sympathetic but this person makes twice the amount I do per month. does not have a mortgage or car payment or even pays the utilities or other bills, This person doesn't even work but lives off their spouse. The more they complained to me the angrier I got until I actually was seeing red. I am not mad about that they make more than I do. But because of the audacity that they had to complain and wanted to find out what to do to get more. I know of people that can't even put food on their table or have to make choices as to which bills to pay each month and are behind more than ahead. But this person was pissed because they hadn't had a raise in their allowance in 4 years. Heck I haven't had a raise in 6 years but I am just glad to have a job. I know where the money goes where this person spends and I don't begrudge them for it but I have a problem with their ability to be ungrateful for what they do have and the fact that they think they are poor, down and out. Well enough of that I have calmed down alot... I slept on it and thought of better things like making my food and clothing donations to the poor closet at church.

Hey I fixed something this weekend that was good. It's a weight watchers recipe.

TACO SOUP
Makes 6 servings
1 pound ground beef browned
1 medium yellow onions diced
1 1/2 cups bush's best seasoned recipe black beans
1 3/4 cups bush's best cannellini beans
1 3/4 cups bush's best pinto beans
2 1/2 cups del monte diced tomatoes basil, garlic and
1 package taco seasoning mix
1 package ranch salad dressing mix
1 3/4 cups del monte fresh cut gold & white corn
4 ounces pace diced green chilies
Brown beef and onions. Add the rest and cook for 30 minutes... makes 6 servings 1 cup each....and will freeze well.

Well I am off to work... Hi HO HI HO it's off to work I go

Babysitting

I have a special little boy in my life - Gavyn. This weekend I got to keep him Friday and all day Saturday. At times after packing up the kitchen sink and all the rest and lugging it around to take him with me. I wonder if I will hold out. It's amazing how much crap you have to take with you just to take one little boy with you to shop or just out to eat. Bottle, powder milk, water bottle, at least 10 diapers, another change of clothes, wipes, ear medicine, cold medicine, gas medicine, teething rings, food, bib, spoon, nose squeezer thing, stroller and of course a binki. But I did it. Luckily my grandson is pretty good about going. At Lunch on Saturday we went to Red Lobster and he was so good full of smiles and keeping us entertained. and then to walmart. As long as the cart was going he wasn't upset. It was when we took him out to the car he started getting cranky. I am guessing he had hi fill of me or maybe it was the shopping but he cried all the way home. I have lost my touch of course i haven't been around a baby in a long while so i don't understand cries or yells or anything baby. The sad part is i think i understand my dogs better than Gavyn. But I wouldn't trade it... I love taking care of Gavyn. and being around him... but I know that I am glad when he goes home too... because this MiMI is tired.

Marriage and Singledom

You know in a million years i never would have thought that I would be single, divorced, and alone at 42 but I am. I really crave Marriage at times because i see my parents, sister and brother, my grandparents and so many others who have found the one and made it permanant. I wish things in this life could be different but it hasn't happened. I am not knocking being single though there are a lot of positive things being single and to be honest i have grown to enjoy it. but I still crave that one step that i havne't had. It is like all the things that go on in my life. just once i wish i could share that with a significant other and be able to hear their opinion instead of just going on my own... but I make due... or i stumble through it all on my own. well that was on my mind today...