The things I am Greatful For....

You know this time of year I think everyone should sit and reflect over the year over their blessings, trials and so forth. I have been doing so over the last few weeks and I have relized that i have been blessed so much this year that i can even begin to express even a small part of what i am greatful for.

I can however tell all of you that i am greatful for my family and friends for without you guys i would never ever be able to be at the point i am at now. able to see and able to get around. my mom and dad have been wonderful to me far more than they should have been and i can never begin to repay them for their help. Jodi , Gavyn and Doug have also been so good to me that i can never repay them toting the blind woman around, helping her walk and appointment trips and so forth. Marc has been good too to make sure i get where i need to go. Kimberly, Bill, Dalton and Colby have also been there to help with the simple chores or rides. and then the many phone calls, emails and just good thoughts from those of you that have done so. Believe me I can never repay all your kindness effieciently.

It is my hope and wishes that this year has been good to all of you and that next year will be even better.

Ok another point... Marc took me to Big Lots yesterday. has anyone ever been there... what a wonderful place... it is like a super big dollar store... big first Tonka trucks for 5 dollars... Madam Alexander dolls for 15 dollars... i know that these are last years or previous years items but they are new and just as nice for any child. Marc even bought some Banquet Complete Meals there for a 1 dollar. and at Walmart they were like 6 or 8 dollars... we actually went to Dollar Store too and there were complete outfits for boys... jeans, shirts and hats for 6 dollars... now i am finished with Christmas and the wrapping begins.... So far i have only had to rewrap 2 boxes. My grandpuppy Foxy, the Corgi had to help me out by chewing on the bows

Size 12 Jeans and a shot

i can't believe it... I am in a size 12 jeans.... pinch me i still can't believe it... and so many compliments today from Dr. Nanda and his staff... i am blushing...of courst my size 12 jeans over took the shot in the eye of avastin... Ok peples how many of you can allow a doctor to come at your eye with a needle. all without the benefit of a tranquilizer.... but 3rd time is a charm... hopefully it will do what it is supposed to do... clear the blood.... but if not maybe surgery in 2 months.... but until the the ultra sound showed no new growth and the hole in the macula is completely gone... just like those 159 lbs..... hmmmm SIZE `12...... i still can't believe my ass got into a size 12.... i haven't been a 12 since maybe middle school.... and i didn't even have to lay down onthe bed to button... i could stand up and actually button the button and zip up without any trouble... hmmm and in a size 12 no less... ok i think now i am just gloating....Christmas time is here... it is wonderful this christmas.... i am thinner... mom is thinner.... gavyn is here.... dad is getting around good.... jodi is still a pain in the fanny but i do appreciate her and love her to pieces.... hmmm i am so greatful for a lot of things.... my family, my friends.... my girls.... my doctors.... everything i am totally thankful and greatful for it all....

Eye Doctors and Eyes

Hi all. Well i went today to the regular eye doctor because i am needing new glasses. Well i already knew left eye was not an option as far as getting glasses and wasn't sure where my right eye was... but guess what... I can legally drive in the state of Oklahoma and all other 49 states.... for a one eyed driver i needed to have 20/80 vision or better... before i would have limitations set upon me... i have 20/35 vision... according to Dr. Lavale I am doing great for all that i have gone through... and he has ordered my glasses so that i can see things clearer... i am so thankful... he even told me that my eyes looked very good for as much as i have had done to them. But I get to start sewing again... and driving again... no one would understand it unless you have been without driving.... so just a couple more weeks... then look out.... tomorrow i go back to the surgeon and find out about another left eye surgery.... so on to better things... hmmm i am wondering which to do first... quilt wize.... i am thinking Jodi's wedding quilt... but then again i am thinking about one i saw in a magazine last night....Well Christmas is next week.... I only got Gavyn and Bailey things... I didn't get very much this year because money is tight... but Gavyn will love his new 4 wheeler... it is a little 12 volt battery powered 4 wheeler... i am excited about giving it to him... it is just big enough for him but he will love it... he loves the 4 wheeler and gator that his dad and Papa (my dad) have... I have found that the best place to get him some clothes is at the Dollar Store... nice little outfits that aren't name brand but 5 to 10 bucks for a whole outfit... that boy is growing so right now name brand wouldn't be a good thing.... Now Bailey who is Marc's daughter is 10... I got her a few things I think a young girl will like... of course i am relearning about young girls because Jodi wasn't a normal girl she didn't like the girly things... but Bailey does... Marc is having a hard time of it now because he has colon cancer that has spread to his liver.... he is going through 5 and 1/2 weeks of radiation and chemo and i know it is hard on him... and especially here at christmas... that is why i volunteered to help him buy christmas and birthday for Bailey... because he just couldn't go do it.... between 5 days of radiation and 5 days of chemo and working 5 or 6 days a weeks... it takes its toll on him... i do feel bad for him and i know he is having it tougher than i am... but i am in hopes that all will be ok for him in the end... hmmm being 40 and sick is for the birds... i am just lucky that it's my eyes and not a lot worse...

The Sleepover

The best thing about being a Mimi is that I can spoil the child and then send him home. Last night I had a sleep over. Now where else can a little man have corn dogs, cheetoes, jelly beans, yogos and crystal light, wear snow men pajamas and sleep with three dogs. Well Gavyn spent his first night with Mimi, i have to admit i was a little scared about having him there and having him want to go home but oh no he was ready to stay. Our night was wonderful he ate corn dogs and the like then we had a shower in mimi's big shower. he loved it. He could scream and have it echo, run through the water, and flap his hands and spray water all over the place. My shower is 5 feet by 6 feet with a large shower head in the center. we had a long warm shower shared by Chloe and Blossem, Daisy didn't want to get her paws wet but Chloe and Blossem loved running around the edge to get away from Gavyn. Then we got out and got dressed for bed... then we laid down for a winter nap.... oh and it took about 30 minutes to get all situated... the Girls were dislodged from around me and Gavyn sleeps wildly so they were misplaced most of the night. Gavyn slept the night through and was up at 4 a.m. but we laid back down for another 2 hours or so he thought it was fun to say boo at the top of his lung this morning at 4... but when he knew that the Girls had to sleep he laid quietly so they could get their beauty rest. I don't think his mother thought i was capable... but we did it.... got the first one out of the way.... and even had breakfast this morning.... athough he started acting up when his mother arrived...

I am Back..... just like the dinosaurs

Hi everyone, well I am Back.... yes i will probably watch Land Before Time--- with my grandson Gavyn. Well it has been a while. but i am 159 lbs less than i was last year at this time. My eyes are getting better --- well i hope. Right eye is doing ok... Left eye is still blank... but possible surgery to correct is right around the corner... I am hoping to get some pictures done for everyone to see the new and improved Brenda. 192 lbs... can you believe it... 192 i am below 200 lbs... my tat that i am going to get next year is going to commemorate it... yes me a tattoo...I actually could see my face the other day in the mirror... i almost didn't recognize myself and had to look again.... I almost looked like my high school pictures... well i was blonder then... but close... oh and i had a perm all the time back then too... but i am closer than i have been in years... and wearing a 12/14 is wonderful