Eye Doctors and Eyes

Hi all. Well i went today to the regular eye doctor because i am needing new glasses. Well i already knew left eye was not an option as far as getting glasses and wasn't sure where my right eye was... but guess what... I can legally drive in the state of Oklahoma and all other 49 states.... for a one eyed driver i needed to have 20/80 vision or better... before i would have limitations set upon me... i have 20/35 vision... according to Dr. Lavale I am doing great for all that i have gone through... and he has ordered my glasses so that i can see things clearer... i am so thankful... he even told me that my eyes looked very good for as much as i have had done to them. But I get to start sewing again... and driving again... no one would understand it unless you have been without driving.... so just a couple more weeks... then look out.... tomorrow i go back to the surgeon and find out about another left eye surgery.... so on to better things... hmmm i am wondering which to do first... quilt wize.... i am thinking Jodi's wedding quilt... but then again i am thinking about one i saw in a magazine last night....Well Christmas is next week.... I only got Gavyn and Bailey things... I didn't get very much this year because money is tight... but Gavyn will love his new 4 wheeler... it is a little 12 volt battery powered 4 wheeler... i am excited about giving it to him... it is just big enough for him but he will love it... he loves the 4 wheeler and gator that his dad and Papa (my dad) have... I have found that the best place to get him some clothes is at the Dollar Store... nice little outfits that aren't name brand but 5 to 10 bucks for a whole outfit... that boy is growing so right now name brand wouldn't be a good thing.... Now Bailey who is Marc's daughter is 10... I got her a few things I think a young girl will like... of course i am relearning about young girls because Jodi wasn't a normal girl she didn't like the girly things... but Bailey does... Marc is having a hard time of it now because he has colon cancer that has spread to his liver.... he is going through 5 and 1/2 weeks of radiation and chemo and i know it is hard on him... and especially here at christmas... that is why i volunteered to help him buy christmas and birthday for Bailey... because he just couldn't go do it.... between 5 days of radiation and 5 days of chemo and working 5 or 6 days a weeks... it takes its toll on him... i do feel bad for him and i know he is having it tougher than i am... but i am in hopes that all will be ok for him in the end... hmmm being 40 and sick is for the birds... i am just lucky that it's my eyes and not a lot worse...

The Sleepover

The best thing about being a Mimi is that I can spoil the child and then send him home. Last night I had a sleep over. Now where else can a little man have corn dogs, cheetoes, jelly beans, yogos and crystal light, wear snow men pajamas and sleep with three dogs. Well Gavyn spent his first night with Mimi, i have to admit i was a little scared about having him there and having him want to go home but oh no he was ready to stay. Our night was wonderful he ate corn dogs and the like then we had a shower in mimi's big shower. he loved it. He could scream and have it echo, run through the water, and flap his hands and spray water all over the place. My shower is 5 feet by 6 feet with a large shower head in the center. we had a long warm shower shared by Chloe and Blossem, Daisy didn't want to get her paws wet but Chloe and Blossem loved running around the edge to get away from Gavyn. Then we got out and got dressed for bed... then we laid down for a winter nap.... oh and it took about 30 minutes to get all situated... the Girls were dislodged from around me and Gavyn sleeps wildly so they were misplaced most of the night. Gavyn slept the night through and was up at 4 a.m. but we laid back down for another 2 hours or so he thought it was fun to say boo at the top of his lung this morning at 4... but when he knew that the Girls had to sleep he laid quietly so they could get their beauty rest. I don't think his mother thought i was capable... but we did it.... got the first one out of the way.... and even had breakfast this morning.... athough he started acting up when his mother arrived...

Two New Teeth

I have to talk about my Grandson Gavyn... you can see pictures of him on his mom's blog (Just add Bugs) ... Gavyn is a precious thing I could say a gift from God or whatever but he is more than that... He is the reason I am alive.... I had to have a purpose in life and i have come to understand that the major part of my purpose was to have Jodi, a wonderful young woman whom I have had the enjoyment to watch grow up and and become a productive human being and although i can say a lot about my daughter and how much I love her and how much i appreciate her and how beautiful and how smart and so forth I am not going to do that today because I have to talk about another part of my purpose in life and that is her son Gavyn. Oh everyone he is a dream, healthy, smart, handsome.... of course he is also stubborn, spoiled, and moody but he is a great gift.... to have the time to watch this child grow over the last few months to watch him learn and to see him just live has been so very special. This last weekend he learned to drink from a straw... oh it was so funny to watch him just drink and drink and drink cold tea... his diapers were full by the end of the day... now we have two new teeth coming in the top ones he doesn't seem to whine about them but he chews on everything like my arm or my finger.... or a chewie.... i feel so sorry for him because if he could just get them through he feel so much better. Oh and he is a green bean boy... that boy loves green beans too bad his mother doesn't like veggies (my sister Kimberly is responsible for this) or else she would fix them for him... I can't wait to see what the next weeks, months, years bring for this boy or for me but I am sure going to enjoy all of it.
It's raining again today like we need more... oh I know in the summer we will be bitching about it but my yard is so water logged.... and the girls can't hardly go out to pee because the water is standing... and oh the ticks and mosquitos.... lord i hate those things... the ticks are ravenous this year and many of them....
well got to run my peeps.... tata for now.... love ya

A good Day

hey all Today was a good day. I got my boy for the most part. the little one didn't want to play by himself he kept crawling under my desk to get up on my lap. His mom blames me for corrupting him... I think it is her because he has to be entertained instead of entertaining himself. oh well she will learn.... but Gavyn and I were together most of the day. Poor little fellow had sore gums... and was horribly in pain... I felt so bad because he also was having a problem with allergies or something..we had to go pick up mommy so that she could take him to the doctor to help him...

I worked on my genealogy today and bought myself a web page creator so that i can get my Family page updated. I won't have to write or type out code it will automatically put it together. My girls have been playing all day. I think that Gavyn is scared of them a little because they bounce too much. I don't know if any of you ever have seen a pug(with the exception of Frank from Men in Black) but my girls are lively ones. They are flat faced, bug eyed, bouncy hyper little girls then they will keel over and lay flat out never moving but snoring non the less... Each has her own personality... My first girl was Rosie... she passed on a few years ago but she was a PUG... short, stout, squat, flat faced and blond... Smart as a whip though she was a good girl very quiet like an old lady. But everyday i worked she would crawl into my lap with her big bugged eyes and just quietly lay there never barking never quick moves just a solid old lady.... she wasn't old though just an old spirit... she passed on a couple of years ago... and i still miss her... the next one is Blossem... a tall leggy black female... flat faced, bugged eyes not your typical pug body... but full blood... she is the boss aroundhere... keeping everyone in line by hook or by crook She is always at my left side whether in the chair or on in bed. She really is a sweet girl but Chloe really gets under her skin at times. the next is Daisey. a big old black female... she has a big belly and is 10 lbs bigger than blossem... she has little ears that stick out a little and she is not that bright at times... but if you ever need a sweet girl then that is Daisey... she is shy and timid a little but ever the sweet girl.... Now there is Chloe.... oh my my my supposedly when i bought her she was a "mini" pug... not to get over 8 lbs. her mom and dad were very little but this little blond girl grew up... and at 17 lbs she is between blossem and daisey... wiry, vocal, bouncy, quick, darting, spooky of everything, and just down right bouncy she gets on every one's nerves... but she is a good girl... when she finally quiets down she is sweet girl too... but she doesn't like Jodi at all.... so when jodi is here we have a barking demon... So that is my girls... i hope to have pictures soon... so you can see my girls....

well it is evening.... and my boy tired me out completely... i am going to get to bed early....

tata folks...

EYES EYES EVERYWHERE EYES

I wonder somtimes what in the world i have done to deserve this eye thing. I hate laser surgeries or even the dye crap that you have to take to let them see the breaks and the fissures and the broken spots. Of course it only makes me sick as a dog and makes me see red litereally. Have you ever seen RED.... it gives new meaning to rose colored glasses. everything is red or tinged or hued red. everything everybody everything. it's like jodi's face was brilliant pink.... light bulbs are blood red.... brown things are dark red... and the feeling you get is just one of weirdness. Now the time that Mark took me everything blue was gone... I couldn't see blue at all but the things that were blue were green in color... oh then of course there is the seeing of the bleeding veins... where it bursts out and all i see is the line of blood and the feathing of the blood as it dilutes in my sirus fluid... oh well i guess i will only go through what I can handle but i am getting tired of handling it....

I get my boy today. he has had a rash that looks bad. I wish he coudl talk so that we could help him when he is upset but now it is just a guessing game... but i do get my boy today...

ok here is a recipe that I have tried and it is good...

Sourthwest Lasguna
1 lbs of hamburger
1 can of black beans rinses and dried
1 package of taco seasoning
(1 cup of corn) this is optional and not for me
1 cup of salsa

15 ounces of ff ricotta cheese
1 cup of monterrey jack cheese
2 cloves of garlic
onion powder ( to your prefferece)
garlic powder
(9 low carb Lasguna noodles ( i don't use this either because i havent found the dreamfields kind
1 1/2 cup of your favorite spagetti sauce ( I used Low Carb Rao's Homemade Sauce Garlic)

Brown beef and drain ( also use a paper towel to sop up the rest of the grease) add black beans (corn) salsa and taco seasoning set aside

Mix ricotta, cheese, garlic, onion

layer in a 9 x 13 pan.... 3 noodles; half hamberger mix, 1/2 cup of spagetti sauce, half ricotta, 3 more noodles, rest of meat mix, 1/2 cup of spagetti sauce the rest of the ricotta. top with last three noodles 1/2 cup of spagetti sauce and 1 cup of monterry jack cheese... bake on 350 for 45 minutes...

**** note**** i don't eat corn because of my band nor do i eat pasta any more... so i made this using just three layers.... meat mix on bottom, 1 cup of spagetti sauce, ricotta cheese mix on top of that.... then 1/2 cup of spagetti sauce and cheese... i only baked it for 30 minutes.... it was good and gave me the lasguna fix.... freezes well too... i had 12 pieces... ate one... left one out of next night... froze the rest..

tata for now

Happy Good Friday

Well this is the Easter Weekend. We celebrate the death and rising of Christ. I am not an overtly Christian person but I do believe and I do appreciate all that Christ has given me. but i have to admit i am at times not a good christian like I should have signed up for the Prayer sessions or helping with the Easter egg hunt at church but i am a bit hung up on resting on the times i do have off. Today i was off not because my boss just let us off it takes a lot of pleading for it to happen but I was off. And we took Gavyn to have his Easter pictures taken he is 8 months old on the 14th... but so much has happened in that time. he is crawling and trying to walk. trying hard to pull himself up... getting more independent. Oh and teeth coming in and the "dada" and "talking"... I enjoy him so but when he gets tired it is Mommy time and i go home or Gavyn goes home... I have already paid my dues on that part.

my weight loss is going well i am at a stall but 62 lbs is not bad... i go and get a fill this next week so that should be fun... although i am not sure but something is going wrong this last week and i don't know if it is what i eat or how much or what but i have been slimming and pb'ing lots this week. and i found that i can't eat pork chops or roast at all. oh and after a session of slimming or pb'ing a person just can't even smell pork without puking... oh well... i can still eat bacon, ham and sausage... Chicken is getting hard to eat and not sure about that... so now i am down to steak, hamburger some chicken.... oh and lord no no turkey... this weekend mom is having the big Easter dinner... of which i can not eat anything but the ham. this is going to be so hard because i love her potato salad.... oh well i had to give that up.... Well happy egg day tomorrow....

Avon calling

Well folks i have become an Avon representative. hahahah can't you see me coming to your door step. I actually wanted to get a representative ship so i could purchase it on my own. but if anyone wants to buy that is fine.

you know my arm is even bigger lumpier... I have been over working it. and lord it hurts like heck. i can barely raise my arm above my head. or swing it across my chest. I have been icing it but it's not going down. I hope that tomorrow the chiropractor will fix it a little better. Lord lifting Gavyn was troublesome... I kept fearing that I would drop him. My arm was so weak and even with help on Friday I still had to pick him up because he wasn't feeling well. And then of course I had to take my Trash to the dump on Saturday (the extra stuff that the garbage truck wouldn't pick up) of course no help at all to get the hot water tank off the bed or anything... yep strong woman brenda did it all on her own while the garbage man watched me from the cab of his tractor. but i muscled it and bullied it into the big garbage bin. and that thing was no light weight. a 40 gallon water tank even empty was extremely heavy. of course that may be why my arm is double the size it was .. well i had to get it done.

I am still losing but now it has slowed down... I wish it were faster but it won't be. I know that next time I will have to get a fill because even though i am dieting i have noticed that I am able to eat more than i should. and while it is not what i was used to eating.. It is still more than i should. Next time I need to be closed off even more... yeah me....

I truly do not want a fat gut or a fat butt any more... I am ready to be a size 12 or so even a 14.... No more size 22/24 or 24/26.... of course those are going into the garage sale next weekend... i am now in a size 18/20... yeah yeah yeah

well my eyes are blurry today I can't read small letters and i am having trouble seeing the TV. I am not sure what is going on there either but i don't see Dr. Nanda until the 24 of April. I am thinking a trip to the regular eye doctor this week... Lord i am afraid i am going blind... and I don't want to... I have done all this Laser surgery, lapband, insulin medications etc to reverse this and I don't know what i will do if this doesn't work..

Oh well my friend tomorrow is another day.

Grandparenting....

This last year I lost two women who were a big part of my life. My Grandma Edna and my Grandma Sherry. Both very different women but both just as dynamic in life as they were different. And I truly hope that I can be as dynamic in Gavyn's life as they were in mine and in my siblings, daughter and nieces and nephews. and I hope that Gavyn will think of me as highly as I did them.

I laugh to myself because I remember the weird things about these women... Grandma Edna had fake teeth since she was 18 and I remember her putting her teeth in a bowl with a lid on the kitchen counter whenever she went to bed. her lips would be all sunk back in her head and she talked funny as we went to bed with her. and she always always wore this net thingy on her head so her hair wouldn't get messed up. I particularly remember a blue satin one with a little knot thingy on top. and you know satin or silk was to be worn so you hair didn't get matted. oh the times we had when we all spent the night... Trey would sleep with Grandpa in his bed and Kim and I would sleep with Grandma in her bed... both beds in the same room just 3 foot apart. and you know those were the best of times... of course you know Grandpa Don could snore the paint off the walls but Grandma Edna could do the same... so you had to be asleep before them so you could get to sleep.

Now Grandma Sherry was a totally different case all together.... she could drink, cuss like a sailor and drive like a bat out of **** all the time pressing the gas for faster. She drove big cars and I often wonder if it was to make up for her being 5'2"... but who knows... We didn't spend the night with her while as kids...because she was a happening Grandma... she dated lots...and most people didn't know her real age... I often wondered if she even knew at times... she was a very young grandma even though she was close the same age as my other grandmother... she partied often and had the time of her life. She met my step grandfather in the 70's and it was the best marriage there ever was... the biggest memory i have of grandma is cussing out someone who was bigger than she was about a parking spot...but i did love the world out of her too.

both this last year went on to heaven or as a friend told me today to their mansion. and I know that they both look down and probably shake their heads at all the stuff we worry about but my memories of both are of the wonderful women they were and how much i loved them.. and how much an impact they made on my life and I just hope that I can be half the Grandmother that they were. I know that my Mom has become a wonderful grandmother who is both alike the two women above and so very different. and if I could just be 1/2 the grandmother she is too I would be as happy. So we will see what happens... I just hope i am highly thought of when I go to my mansion in heaven.

Motherhood.... trials and tribulations

I have been a mother since 1985. wow a whopping 23 years. but I remember when I was first a mom. Every little scratch, bump, cold, etc... I was freaking out. As most young mothers do. But yesterday my daughter was being a young mother... and I have to laugh because I used to be the same way but it was funny or not so funny to her. My poor baby Gavyn was sick yesterday. Running a fever, coughing, ear ache, among other things. My daughter was so upset and I can understand new baby, new things, new illnesses and with the television there are always new scares out there. I know as Gavyn gets older the scary things will be less... the turmoil of having a sick child will be less I know that by the time Jodi got into school that she was not allowed to call me to come home unless she was bleeding, vomiting or dead... bodily fluids had to be spilled before i would just jump up going and before i would let her come home from school... but with a baby who can't tell you what is wrong it is a terrifying almost traumatic thing to a young mom. I know one of these days my daughter will be just like I was... especially when Gavyn goes to school... but until then she is only in for more turmoil.

Hey all... i lost another 5 lbs... my new diet is working all the high protein low carbing.... so 61 lbs yeah.... believe me i am jumping for joy....

Garden is getting ready... I can't wait... Have got my Topsy Turvy's ready... they did so well last year I am sure that they will this year.... this year i am going to be planting cucumbers and squash in them... and also green beans... and in my new raised beds... some onions and peppers... yeah... yeah yeah... i can't wait...

well i am off to the showers to ready myself for the day.... I still need an idea of a business to start.... anyone????

****UPDATE**** lord it is only 8:45 in the morning and my day has gone to crap... I gained inches all over so now i am depressed...and life in general just keeps getting worse... why is it that NO ONE will give me just a break today... oh it's going to be a bad day...headache is coming on...

Babysitting

I have a special little boy in my life - Gavyn. This weekend I got to keep him Friday and all day Saturday. At times after packing up the kitchen sink and all the rest and lugging it around to take him with me. I wonder if I will hold out. It's amazing how much crap you have to take with you just to take one little boy with you to shop or just out to eat. Bottle, powder milk, water bottle, at least 10 diapers, another change of clothes, wipes, ear medicine, cold medicine, gas medicine, teething rings, food, bib, spoon, nose squeezer thing, stroller and of course a binki. But I did it. Luckily my grandson is pretty good about going. At Lunch on Saturday we went to Red Lobster and he was so good full of smiles and keeping us entertained. and then to walmart. As long as the cart was going he wasn't upset. It was when we took him out to the car he started getting cranky. I am guessing he had hi fill of me or maybe it was the shopping but he cried all the way home. I have lost my touch of course i haven't been around a baby in a long while so i don't understand cries or yells or anything baby. The sad part is i think i understand my dogs better than Gavyn. But I wouldn't trade it... I love taking care of Gavyn. and being around him... but I know that I am glad when he goes home too... because this MiMI is tired.

Good Evening My first Post

Well this is my first post. This is kind of exciting to say the least. I am sitting here watching or half way listening to The Last Templar it's not a bad movie. Well a little about me. I am a new Lap Bander as of January 22, 2009. So I will hopefully be losing weight and get down to my skinny self. I will post pictures when I deem it necessary or when i feel I have changed enough for notice. I am 42 years old. Very single for you guys out there, pretty happy about being single but am not going to pass up a chance to not be single if the right situation comes around. I have a daughter Jodi who used to be my entire life but she graced me with a beautiful boy named Gavyn that took up part of that she had. Oh and then there is her husband who is pretty special too his name is Doug. I have three special girls in my life Blossem, Daisey and Chloe, all are my fur babies who have sweet faces, btw they are pugs. I was diagnosed about 10 years ago with diabetes so you will probably hear me bitch about that or since lapband maybe i will be yelling for joy... well that is all about me for now. going back to watch my movie. Oh by the way i am a movie buff, passionate cook, quiltingaholic, dog lover, scrapbooking nut and a genealogist. Oh and I do all that along with my real job as an accountant for a small oilfield company.