Flubber, Blubber a useful thing

Well my shoulder pain has now been diagnosed right. I am not mad at the chiropractor because he did help but I just couldn't stand the damn pain I was in every time i tried to move my arm up or out to the side or even pick up Gavyn.... Yesterday I went to my Primary Care Physician Dr. Davis for my shoulder and because I have the crud... you know that snotty weather changing crap that I get or most people get every year. Well I went there because snot was being held up in my lapband pouch and not going through so when I ate or drank i was slimming or pb'ing... you think that is gross... be on my end... anyway... i mentioned my shoulder... showed dr. davis my lump and he sent me to a an orthopedic surgeon there in the clinc... which surprise of surprise he got me in immediately (because he had gotten done surgery and hospital rounds early) so off i go. he looked at my arm then sent me to Xray.... I have a bone spur a very large bone spur that is poking and ripping my rotater cuff every time I move it... and I am to have an MRI very soon to see how much damage i have had done... ok you ask just why did it all of a sudden start having pain... "LOSS of FAT".... the blubber i had on my shoulder had been cushioning that bone spur and so that is why I didn't have a lot of pain. so instead of cutting into the rotator cuff it was cutting into the blubber or flubber. and the big lump i have on the bicep that didn't show up until this all happened... well it is a FAT TUMOR something that hasn't been absorbed by my body... Can you believe this i start losing weight and then all the cushion i have built up over the years is leaving and i am finding more problems... i am beginning to wonder what i will find at the end of this journey...

ok.... 72lbs lost.... to me that is a lot of poundage... I am really very proud of myself... I am in a Misses size 16... yes not a woman's size 16. the differences is a woman's size 16 is cut larger at the hips.... sooooooo... a size 16 and I can buy at the regular stores... I can actually walk into a regular store and buy regular clothes... I have found that this is a lot of fat women's dream is to walk into a trendy store to buy off the rack.... you know i am glad i got lap band and it has helped me... it is a tool for me to lose weight... but you know I could have done this on my own... if i had been more diligent on my diet and exercise program... but i ignored it... i really could have lost the weight if I hadn't ignored the rules... the band is just helping me to lose weight just like a scale or smaller portions do.... I really wish i had done this years ago... taken Weight Watchers seriously or any diet seriously... and actually did them correctly instead of sneaking a bite here or a donut there... lets face it I was a sneaky eater.... and i sabotaged my own self... it wasn't that Weight Watchers did work (the many times I joined and went on it) it failed because I just didn't care enough to actually be good on it. You know hind sight is 20/20...

oh the eyes... well i sneezed and coughed and threw up hard, so much that i burst a blood vessel... on the inside of my eye... it was kind of weird it was like bug splatted on the windshield... I found out that it was in the same spot that all the bleeding has a occurred so there was no more damage than that had already been done... but if i could have held off the cough, sneeze or vomiting session i could have not burst it and it would have been sealed off next week... now I have RBC's that could stop me from having lasers in my right eye until it clears up... my eye doctor Jeffery Lee says that it should be cleared up enough by next week that i should not have any more problem but that is if i don't have any more bleeds... right now i just have a half moon at the top of my eye that I have to look through...

well folks i have to work.... tata for now... love ya

Next Meal

Have you watched Lord of the Rings they talked about "Fourth Meal". Well as a Fat person I always always think about my next meal. Something I have thought about for a while now. Why is it that I do think about my "next" meal. I think about what I want how i am going to get it an dhow much I want to eat of it and what all i want with it. then it is on to thinking about the "next " meal. I have no doubt that is why I am the way I am. Could it be because I have a need to fulfill. I don't know I don't even know if it is the "comfort" I need. Or because I use food to cover over all my problems... I do know that food is a habit though... Like a cigarette or a drug. I have come to that conclusion that I use it just like a Junkie would a drug. But I am not sure what it gives me in return... I eat until i was miserable so i would feel bad so there was no pleasure in it.... I would find myself eating without even thinking so ... what it is about Food that me as a Fat person needs or craves... it is like this weekend all i could think about is the next snack or next meal. I was bored and that was all i could think about was food. It wasn't a single thing I was craving it was just I don't know what to do with myself and sooooo lets eat. I have got to change this mind set. On the Obesityhelp.com web site people talk about "real" hunger and "head" hunger.... I think that I have always caved in to any hunger whether head or real. so is this just a thing with "fat" people... I know that it is with me and that is why I am fat... getting skinny but still fat.... also i wonder if it gets better... I sure hope so because I dislike thinking about the "next" meal knowing that I need to think about other things instead

Pioneer Days

I remember when i was a little girl when Pioneer Days meant parades, carnivals, eating things off sticks, rides, floats, horses and the like.... Pioneer Days now means a about 4 stands of stuff i don't need, food i can't eat, rides i wouldn't put my dog on and a parade that is over with in 2 minutes. It is kind of sad to think of all the fun i had a a kid... the Egg Toss, going to M & M to get a 1 cent pieceof gum.... the bins of cheap toys that for me were all the world... the sitting under the tree at other dime store to watch the parade... no more benchs under the trees that lined the street... heck there aren't any more trees... Jodi and I took Gavyn down town yesterday for Pioneer days... Turkey Leggs, cotton candy, lemonade, homemade root beer, funnel cakes and so forth. they had the trike races, and the egg toss but something is lost... it wasn't fun like it used to be.. people i didn't even know. the dime stores are gone now most of the stores are closed the streets are not as full and it is sad but the fun wasnt there any more.

A good Day

hey all Today was a good day. I got my boy for the most part. the little one didn't want to play by himself he kept crawling under my desk to get up on my lap. His mom blames me for corrupting him... I think it is her because he has to be entertained instead of entertaining himself. oh well she will learn.... but Gavyn and I were together most of the day. Poor little fellow had sore gums... and was horribly in pain... I felt so bad because he also was having a problem with allergies or something..we had to go pick up mommy so that she could take him to the doctor to help him...

I worked on my genealogy today and bought myself a web page creator so that i can get my Family page updated. I won't have to write or type out code it will automatically put it together. My girls have been playing all day. I think that Gavyn is scared of them a little because they bounce too much. I don't know if any of you ever have seen a pug(with the exception of Frank from Men in Black) but my girls are lively ones. They are flat faced, bug eyed, bouncy hyper little girls then they will keel over and lay flat out never moving but snoring non the less... Each has her own personality... My first girl was Rosie... she passed on a few years ago but she was a PUG... short, stout, squat, flat faced and blond... Smart as a whip though she was a good girl very quiet like an old lady. But everyday i worked she would crawl into my lap with her big bugged eyes and just quietly lay there never barking never quick moves just a solid old lady.... she wasn't old though just an old spirit... she passed on a couple of years ago... and i still miss her... the next one is Blossem... a tall leggy black female... flat faced, bugged eyes not your typical pug body... but full blood... she is the boss aroundhere... keeping everyone in line by hook or by crook She is always at my left side whether in the chair or on in bed. She really is a sweet girl but Chloe really gets under her skin at times. the next is Daisey. a big old black female... she has a big belly and is 10 lbs bigger than blossem... she has little ears that stick out a little and she is not that bright at times... but if you ever need a sweet girl then that is Daisey... she is shy and timid a little but ever the sweet girl.... Now there is Chloe.... oh my my my supposedly when i bought her she was a "mini" pug... not to get over 8 lbs. her mom and dad were very little but this little blond girl grew up... and at 17 lbs she is between blossem and daisey... wiry, vocal, bouncy, quick, darting, spooky of everything, and just down right bouncy she gets on every one's nerves... but she is a good girl... when she finally quiets down she is sweet girl too... but she doesn't like Jodi at all.... so when jodi is here we have a barking demon... So that is my girls... i hope to have pictures soon... so you can see my girls....

well it is evening.... and my boy tired me out completely... i am going to get to bed early....

tata folks...

Red is the color i see

Ok guys i went to the eye surgeon again today.... and it looks like another round of lasers are in store for me. I think i am just going to resign myself to the fact that I created to much damage and right now it is paying me back. I have thickened Visceral fluid (that means I have swelling in my macula and retina) I have growing weed like blood veins that are weak and thinning to burst. Not what i was hoping for but it is just another part of the journey. My eyes were blurry today very blurry due to the swelling... but that is what it is like almost every day. or with a dark cast over things (bloody water i look through)... the visceral fluid is thickened because of the RBC's (red blood cells) that are floating around in there... I don't know guys I don't know whether to be relieved or to be scared... I guess I should be happy that I wasn't worse I guess because being scared sure as hell isn't getting me anywhere except sleepless nights, worry lines and dark circles. I guess i will just keep blowing up my screen so that I can see it... My cousin Sweet Rete gave me the suggestion of looking for items that would help me out such as voiced control ed computer and so forth.... so i may do that... I don't want to lose my job or my insurance and not sure how much longer Mike is going to "allow" me to be sick before he throws me out into the street... (of which i am sure he has thought about several times)... I am going to try to call KATS (a taxi type service) I think I will try to hire them to drive me to my appointments instead of being a burden to family and friends but i don't know if they go that far or if i can even afford it... I know that all of you are getting tired of it anyway... Today was funny Daddy took me up to my appointment because he had one at another hospital today... we left my house at 5 a.m. just so we could miss the traffic... I was sitting in the lobby of my eye clinic (Integris Building D) at 6:30 a.m. along with the security guard... My appointment was at 8:45 a.m... I was able to watch all the employee's walk in today... I am thankful though because Daddy took me and because I couldn't see to drive to even come back home if i had drove... The did the dye test on me today... they shoot red dye into your vein and then in rapid succession shoot bright lighted pictures of your eye.... you see nothing but red, pink etc... again it made me sick as a dog i was bent over trying not to throw up afterward... Talk about photosynthesis. and of course with your eyes dilated also seeing is an impossibility but today they found the spots that will burst soon and the new growth... and what they have to "spot" weld and "kill" starting the 6th of May... You know funny thing Sweet Rete told me to think about my hobbies that I could incorporate into my life if I do go blind... All need me to see to do them... Quilting, Cooking, Genealogy, Gavyn, Puzzles, Gardening... oh well i will cross that bridge when i get there i guess...

Here is a fast easy recipe I found on Obesityhelp.com: I didn't add the almonds but replaced it with pecans...

Vivian’s OATMEAL ALMOND LACE COOKIES
1 ½ cup rolled oats
1/4 cup Spenda Brown Sugar Blend
1 t. baking powder
½ cup sliced almonds ( optional )
1/3 cup unsalted butter
1 lg. egg
½ t. vanilla
½ t. almond extract
1 t. cinnamon
Preheat oven to 350* Mix oats, sugar, baking powder, almonds. Then add butter ( melted ) egg. & flavorings & cinnamon. Drop by spoonfuls on prepared cookie sheet and flatten. Bake till starts to brown around the edges. Let cookies stand 2 minutes before removing from pan.

Oh here is a book everyone should read... it's about the "right" diet... and then tells you about the food you do eat like meat, beans, veggies etc... i got it from Amazon The Encyclopedia of Healing Foods

Signing off at 200% magnification... tata...

Side Effects of Somethings

Ok so I got my fill last week. and all went well but certain things such as this morning eggs didn't sit well with me... chicken didn't either yesterday... but all and all i threw up... ok gross you ought to be on my end of it... but i have done this a couple of times.... since last week and after it is over i literally see spots and lines across my eyes... ok scare me to death because "more bleeding" not something I want to have happen...because there has got to be a point in all this bleeding stuff that has got to be detrimental... I go back to Nanda this thursday but i am still worried about it... what if I bleed to much and my eyes don't have enough blood or what if i bleed so much that i damage the retina or the macula ... what then... I hate being a wimp or sounding like a drone about all my health issues... I actually enjoy myself but this little problem bothers me the most and it is the foremost on my mind... i went down to Look See so that Jeffry could dialate my eyes so i could be forwarned before going to Nanda tomorrow morning... well the spots i see is dried blood (RBC's) breaking off and floating... no new bleeds.. just floaties... yippee... this is going to work....

OK now on to better news.... TOMATO TREE... i know that all of you have seen the ad on tv... well i ordered them and have planted my tomatos, my cucumbers and my squash... all before last weeks Rain... and they are growing... i am going to have a great garden this year.... well hanging bags.... TOMATO TREEare wonderful better than the bags because you don't have to find a hook to hang them on... they come with their own a frame and they can hold 3 plants instead of one... and they are growing... if i have as good of luck as I did last year then my veggies will be bountiful.... I can't wait... the plants have alread doubled in size... also i recieved as my gift a strawberry topsy turvy.... and planted my strawberries... i think those will work too.... here is the website for the TOMATO TREE Now if you just want the Topsy Turvy.

well going to go now folks.... tata

Protein

Did you know that "PROTEIN" is essential to muscle repair, hair and nail growth, and healing... I didn't until I had bariatric surgery. That is why i drink protein drinks, and eat my protein (meat) first... before veggies and fruits...my typical day is like this...
Breakfast -
1 egg
2 slices of bacon
1/8 cup of cheese
2 tablespoons of soy milk light
1 pat of butter
OR
1 cup of soy milk light
1 scoop of protein powder (usually EAS chocolate or NECTAR Chocolate Truffle)

Morning snack
1 scoop of protein powder (usually NECTAR Strawberry or Cherry or even Lemon)
1 packet of crystal light Whatever flavor matches the Nector
2 cups of water

Lunch
1 small can of tuna or can of chicken
2 tablespoons of light mayo
2 dill pickle slices chopped
1 slice of onion chopped
1 teaspoon of dijon mustard
1 cup of chopped spinach leaves (try to eat dark green leafy lettuce)

Afternoon Snack
1 scoop of protein powder (NECTAR)
1 packet of crystal light
2 cups of water

Dinner
3 to 4 ounces of beef, chicken or fish (pork and I do not agree for some reason)
1 cup of spinach or romaine lettuce (again dark green leafy lettuce)
1/2 cup of some kind of veggies (green beans, squash, etc)
2 tablespoons of salad dressing (i use the regular stuff i don't eat that much so i eat it to go down)
2-4 tablespoons of something to go on top of my meat to go down usually a sauce of some type i have to have this because if not i throw up i usually make up something using 0% Fage Yogurt...

Evening Snack
Something low carb like Sugar Free Fat Free Pudding or a "cake" made from protein powders (as seen on www.theworldaccordingtoeggface.blogspot.com) or as most nights nothing at all

so as you can see i do not starve at all. My calories stay between 900 to 1200 per day 100 of those are protein, and 30-40 are net carbs (carbs minus fiber). I don't feel hungry and with the solid protein's i stay satisfied longer through out the day. I don't get the pangs of starvation like I did eating the high carb stuff i used to eat...

I have to tell something funny... I am drinking these high protein drinks and on saturday i went to see my niece off to her prom (by the way Lairen was beautiful) but on the way i was talking to my nephews the weight lifters. I know that they are weight lifting and we talked about drinking protein drinks well being the expert I gave my opinion to them... it was funny because i thought they had been drinking these drinks for the last year or so because they are gettin muscles... and they way they talked they knew about EAS and had drank the drinks and like them... i found out on Sunday after talking to their mom that they had only drank 4 of the premade ones (which are gross in my standards)and that was the extent of their knowledge and that their coach had told them what to get.... I was so impressed with myself because i could talk to them that i never stopped to realize that a lot of what i said they never heard of...Sometimes i am too full of myself

tata for now folks

Housecleaning....... hmmmm

well most who know me knows that I will wait until the very end to clean my house... I hate housework...it is like i would much rather have a stick in my eye before i want to do house work... well today my house got cleaned... and by a man no less...my friend Marc came down and cleaned up my house... well part of it... but will be back later to finish it... it will be nice to go home to a clean floor... picked up living room and neatened kitchen.... I just wish i could hire him on a daily basis... but i have to admit he keeps my yard very nice during the summer... and my plants watered... and the garden growing and the girls happy when he is there... but the house cleaning yippee... it's a good thing that he has a gene that makes him want everything clean... and not only will he clean but he scours, cloroxs, de germs, de bugs, de marks, and scrubs the grout... toilet bowls shine, floors shine or carpet is cleaned... My yard will be a show piece this year because Marc is very anal about it... but that is ok.... I like it when he can do my yard or clean my house... because that means I don't have to do it...Thank God for great friends

EYES EYES EVERYWHERE EYES

I wonder somtimes what in the world i have done to deserve this eye thing. I hate laser surgeries or even the dye crap that you have to take to let them see the breaks and the fissures and the broken spots. Of course it only makes me sick as a dog and makes me see red litereally. Have you ever seen RED.... it gives new meaning to rose colored glasses. everything is red or tinged or hued red. everything everybody everything. it's like jodi's face was brilliant pink.... light bulbs are blood red.... brown things are dark red... and the feeling you get is just one of weirdness. Now the time that Mark took me everything blue was gone... I couldn't see blue at all but the things that were blue were green in color... oh then of course there is the seeing of the bleeding veins... where it bursts out and all i see is the line of blood and the feathing of the blood as it dilutes in my sirus fluid... oh well i guess i will only go through what I can handle but i am getting tired of handling it....

I get my boy today. he has had a rash that looks bad. I wish he coudl talk so that we could help him when he is upset but now it is just a guessing game... but i do get my boy today...

ok here is a recipe that I have tried and it is good...

Sourthwest Lasguna
1 lbs of hamburger
1 can of black beans rinses and dried
1 package of taco seasoning
(1 cup of corn) this is optional and not for me
1 cup of salsa

15 ounces of ff ricotta cheese
1 cup of monterrey jack cheese
2 cloves of garlic
onion powder ( to your prefferece)
garlic powder
(9 low carb Lasguna noodles ( i don't use this either because i havent found the dreamfields kind
1 1/2 cup of your favorite spagetti sauce ( I used Low Carb Rao's Homemade Sauce Garlic)

Brown beef and drain ( also use a paper towel to sop up the rest of the grease) add black beans (corn) salsa and taco seasoning set aside

Mix ricotta, cheese, garlic, onion

layer in a 9 x 13 pan.... 3 noodles; half hamberger mix, 1/2 cup of spagetti sauce, half ricotta, 3 more noodles, rest of meat mix, 1/2 cup of spagetti sauce the rest of the ricotta. top with last three noodles 1/2 cup of spagetti sauce and 1 cup of monterry jack cheese... bake on 350 for 45 minutes...

**** note**** i don't eat corn because of my band nor do i eat pasta any more... so i made this using just three layers.... meat mix on bottom, 1 cup of spagetti sauce, ricotta cheese mix on top of that.... then 1/2 cup of spagetti sauce and cheese... i only baked it for 30 minutes.... it was good and gave me the lasguna fix.... freezes well too... i had 12 pieces... ate one... left one out of next night... froze the rest..

tata for now

Everything in Moderation

hey guys went to Dr. Eldridge and got my fill... 1 cc of saline solution put into my band... but the kicker is 68 lbs.... 68 lbs of fat gone.... go look at the meat aisle and just look at what 68 lbs looks like... it looks like a lot.... and you know it's not that hard to do if you just put your mind do it.... actually think out what it is you are going to put into your mouth... i should have been able to eat anytthing... before the band... but moderation.... Everything in moderation is the saying... it's true... if you think before you eat and only eat a moderate amount you won't get fat... eat grains, meats, veggies and fruits just like our fore fathers did...

Happy Happy Monday

Well today was just like any other day. work and home... you would think that it would be better but it was boring... I did go to Mr. Lee took a look at my eyes and declaired them good... but then on the way home I had a bleed... so apparently they weren't that good... I am beginning to think that my eyes start bleeding because of stress.... i had just taken a phone call and was terribly upset when i noticed my eyes bleeding... so need to destress.... before eyeballs explode...

made myself a treat...
chocolate almond mousse
1 package of sf ff chocolate fudge instant pudding mix
2 scoops of EAS whey powder
2 cups of silk soy milk plain
1/2 carton of cool whip free
1/2 cup of coconut (unsweetened)
1/2 cup of slivered almonds

mix pudding mix and whey powder and milk together
add in cool whip, coconut and almonds... refridgerate

it was good and is great...

Here comes Peter Cottontail

Well Happy Easter Everyone, Family and Friends alike. Today I started out totally in the dark literally. The electricity was off on the south side of Okemah. Yippee I had a mag light and had to wait until it lightened outside before i actually ventured out. with the electricity out so were my phones and for some reason the cell phones were out too. Needless to say I didn't make it to Sunrise service at the lake at 6:30 a.m. this morning of course i understand there were 10 people a lot better than I was to do that but not me... I did make it to church though i used the mag light to put on my makeup. you guys try doing that at on a rainy day using a mag light... i was just glad i got my makeup on straight and with no streaks. but all in all with it being rainy and cold it was a good day... it was Easter and i was able to spend it with my family. It was Gavyn's first Easter today I think it was like Christmas it was just another with a lot of people he didn't know and he got to flirt and show off.

OHHHHHHH major major major happiness time.... I wear a size 16 jeans... oh my it was the most wonderful thing to actually put those damn things on.... you have no idea i haven't seen a size 16 since I was 18.... yeah yeah yeah....... 16 16 16 my new favorite number

ohh another thing... i made a dessert to take was great.... here is the recipe...

Lemon Mousse

1 package of SF FF Lemon Pudding
2 cups of Silk Soy Milk Plain
1 scoop of Syntrex Nector Roadside Lemonade
1 tub of Crystal Light Lemonade
1 1/2 tubs of Cool Whip Free.
12 ounces of real Blueberries

mix pudding then mix all other stuff together.... it fixs your lemon pie fix.... makes 8 servings
Cal 138 Fat 1g;

well going to go for now.... electric is back on... and i need to clean house

Happy Good Friday

Well this is the Easter Weekend. We celebrate the death and rising of Christ. I am not an overtly Christian person but I do believe and I do appreciate all that Christ has given me. but i have to admit i am at times not a good christian like I should have signed up for the Prayer sessions or helping with the Easter egg hunt at church but i am a bit hung up on resting on the times i do have off. Today i was off not because my boss just let us off it takes a lot of pleading for it to happen but I was off. And we took Gavyn to have his Easter pictures taken he is 8 months old on the 14th... but so much has happened in that time. he is crawling and trying to walk. trying hard to pull himself up... getting more independent. Oh and teeth coming in and the "dada" and "talking"... I enjoy him so but when he gets tired it is Mommy time and i go home or Gavyn goes home... I have already paid my dues on that part.

my weight loss is going well i am at a stall but 62 lbs is not bad... i go and get a fill this next week so that should be fun... although i am not sure but something is going wrong this last week and i don't know if it is what i eat or how much or what but i have been slimming and pb'ing lots this week. and i found that i can't eat pork chops or roast at all. oh and after a session of slimming or pb'ing a person just can't even smell pork without puking... oh well... i can still eat bacon, ham and sausage... Chicken is getting hard to eat and not sure about that... so now i am down to steak, hamburger some chicken.... oh and lord no no turkey... this weekend mom is having the big Easter dinner... of which i can not eat anything but the ham. this is going to be so hard because i love her potato salad.... oh well i had to give that up.... Well happy egg day tomorrow....

Well I am back

hey everyone, i am back... hmmm nothing like a little bleeding blood vessels to stop a person from typing or reading on the internet. diabete's is an unforgiving disease. You never cure it, it never goes away, it can go into remission.... but it is forever with you. So you must be on top of it at all times. Low Carb dieting, counting calories obviously watching sugar content. At times I am very fustrated at it because why must I be inflicted with it when others in my family are not. what made me the choice persone for this. Well a lot of bad choices and lots and lots of weight gain. now back to the bleeding blood vessels. Do you know what Macular Edema is? Well it is the swelling of bloodvessels in your eyes and also the growing of new weaker blood vessels. well those itty bitty blood vessels burst or have weak spots.... Not a fun thing to watch when you are driving. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Diabetic_macular_edema.jpg take a look at that... now while i may say my eyes are bleeding not one person can see it on the outside of my eyes... but i can see it from the inside.... accross my vision i can see lines that burst out and then feather like blood in water... I can actually see it happening. then my eyes become foggy because blood covers my vision so i am looking through bloody water only i don't see red i see dark. now because of this i have to have laser surgery to cauterize the weak spots and kill the newer blood vessels that are growing. it hurts peeps... it hurts like a burn on your arm... it feels a lot like and smells a lot like burning your finger or arm on the heating element of an iron or stove (of which i have done several times)... or try the burn or smell of burning your hair with a curling iron. only they do about 100 to 200 precise laser burns on my eye if i am having a light laser.. and between 1500 to 2000 precise laser burns if i am having a heavy laser. Now when you get to Dr. Nanda's office you are taken back and given drops to dialate your eyes and then you are sat out in the waiting room for anywhere from 30 minutes to 3 hours (usually the 3 hours) then you are taken to this little room where you get more dialation drops and also deadening drops that deaden your eye balls so that they can do the surgery... you don't feel anything until about 20 minutes later after the laser... but you are held in place by nurses hands and your eye is held open by the doctor as he laser's your eyes through a magnifier. Your eyes water violently and swell and light becomes your enemy.... and seeing is non exsistant... that is why you have an escort to the front so they can fill out your check or get your card for you and put your pen where you have to sign... then out the door you go to find your driver home... you sit in the passenger seat with glasses and i usually with a coat over my head... as i said light is your enemy... and seeing not for a couple of days... driving actually i am released to drive at 24 hours after my actual surgery but i usually wait... and i keep my house dark. So there you have it... i am back i can see for the time being waiting for my bleeding to stop so i can go to Dr. Nanda on the 23rd for the beginning of my lasers...