Avon calling

Well folks i have become an Avon representative. hahahah can't you see me coming to your door step. I actually wanted to get a representative ship so i could purchase it on my own. but if anyone wants to buy that is fine.

you know my arm is even bigger lumpier... I have been over working it. and lord it hurts like heck. i can barely raise my arm above my head. or swing it across my chest. I have been icing it but it's not going down. I hope that tomorrow the chiropractor will fix it a little better. Lord lifting Gavyn was troublesome... I kept fearing that I would drop him. My arm was so weak and even with help on Friday I still had to pick him up because he wasn't feeling well. And then of course I had to take my Trash to the dump on Saturday (the extra stuff that the garbage truck wouldn't pick up) of course no help at all to get the hot water tank off the bed or anything... yep strong woman brenda did it all on her own while the garbage man watched me from the cab of his tractor. but i muscled it and bullied it into the big garbage bin. and that thing was no light weight. a 40 gallon water tank even empty was extremely heavy. of course that may be why my arm is double the size it was .. well i had to get it done.

I am still losing but now it has slowed down... I wish it were faster but it won't be. I know that next time I will have to get a fill because even though i am dieting i have noticed that I am able to eat more than i should. and while it is not what i was used to eating.. It is still more than i should. Next time I need to be closed off even more... yeah me....

I truly do not want a fat gut or a fat butt any more... I am ready to be a size 12 or so even a 14.... No more size 22/24 or 24/26.... of course those are going into the garage sale next weekend... i am now in a size 18/20... yeah yeah yeah

well my eyes are blurry today I can't read small letters and i am having trouble seeing the TV. I am not sure what is going on there either but i don't see Dr. Nanda until the 24 of April. I am thinking a trip to the regular eye doctor this week... Lord i am afraid i am going blind... and I don't want to... I have done all this Laser surgery, lapband, insulin medications etc to reverse this and I don't know what i will do if this doesn't work..

Oh well my friend tomorrow is another day.

My First Fill

Well today is the day. I am kind of excited but sort of scared about it. I know that I will stand straight against a wall and drink a cup of water slowly as they insert a needle into my port and add saline solution into my band. successfully closing the upper stomach pouch so I will not be able to eat all I want. I can't even do that now but this will make it even harder. I am worried about all the throwing up that I have had that I may have twisted or turned over the port or done something wrong to the band. I am 98 percent sure that I haven't but it's that other 2 percent that I have. but I will find out today. Hmmmm so today is the big day the one I have been preparing for. I have been watching my calories and I have been doing very well on that point. I have lost a total of 56 lbs that can't be that bad... 15 inches lost.... My "big" clothes are loose and I have already started a box of "big" clothes to get rid of. yeah I can say I have "big" clothes...

Well I had a moment today

I had to tell you all that I had a moment of heavy thought today. I actually am losing weight because my belly didn't touch the steering wheel. I know that you all don't understand it or maybe you do. But I actually would get into the Truck and behind the wheel and half the time my shirt was unbuttoned because the steering wheel would rub against my shirt and the buttons would open up. oh its a great feeling to be able to get behind the wheel and not touch it.